Yo.

Either VCE was piss easy or I’ve become slack/lazy/unmotivated. 
Almost accepting the fact I’m not a book-smart person anymore lol…or am I just not putting in the required effort to get the same results as I used to. Uni’s a big place, and that means being surrounded by people that are a LOT smarter. Pretty competitive, pretty depressing, pretty in-your-face-time-to-realise-what’s-out-there.

Study seems like the only thing I can’t do efficiently/quickly these days. I’ve thought of ways to do everything else as fast as possible…no matter how stupid it is. I built my own PC that is faster than 99% of everything else…I even have a keyboard that lets you type faster! (legit). I drive fast everywhere…I just helped my mum print some stuff on a laser printer i recently got (cos it prints faster) and she said everything I have is fast…as strange as it is, she’s right…except for study. (I think of the weirdest shit, but meh)

If only I could grasp theories, formulae, concepts…as fast as I seem to be able to do everything else. Few weeks till exam. Does no good just writing about being screwed and writing about how you’ll study. So from today onwards, gonna aim for some real revision!

Since semester started I’ve been pushing myself to attend events, apply for graduate programs and go for positions/roles in organisations that will help me work towards landing an interview.

I have never been so tired and put in so much effort since…maybe VCE days. I was barely achieving anything decent since uni started but things look like they’re changing now! I’ve never been so excited seeing my emails say something other than ‘you have been declined…’. 
I guess the harder you work, the more opportunities you’ll be giving!
I used to never burn out,  but I burn out in about a week now LOL. 
I finally know how hard people who average H1 work. 
If this is how grueling it feels to work hard, then they deserve the results, and I deserve what I got for being slack in the past.

March is a time of hell where all the companies open their doors for applications…so hopefully after this month it settles down a bit.
There are still people working 10 times harder than you, and a friend’s friend is making 6 figures on a part-time investment banking job. There are people who have achieved things you’d never imagine, but all you can do is try to move forward step by step. 

Pushing yourself to work hard is painful, but knowing it’ll get you somewhere some day eases the pain. My dad always tells me; work hard now and be more relaxed in the future…so hopefully more pain now means less work in the future!

He better be right